Saturday, May 16, 2015

One Way to Feel Better

04/22.

on days when you feel bad,
try to look good.
wear what makes you happy.
you'll feel better about yourself,
at least on the outside,
and it will give you a reason
to get out of bed in the morning.

Actual Messages I Sent You

04/21.

i don't know how to be that girl anymore
i don't know how to be confident and strong
i don't know how to make you love me more each day
i don't know how to make you feel so lucky
to be in love with me
i don't know how to be the girl you loved to
skype with all night long

so maybe you're right...
but i don't know how to be anything
without you.

If I Was Interesting

04/21.

if i
was interesting enough
i wonder if
he would
love me
fault after fault,
over and over.

His Eyes Were Watching Me

04/21.

a boy
i'd never seen
before
muscular,
mahogany hair,
my age,

i looked away,
wearing old jeans,
this pageboy haircut,
a normally proportioned person

and yet-
his eyes were
still watching me.

I'll Never Want to Leave

04/21.

i wish i wanted to leave you,
at least that would make more sense
but love is insane
and it goes against reason
and it makes everything hard.

Shakespeare Would Be Proud

04/21.

let's just say
i'm making two lists,
and anyone who cares about me
better hope that one
outweighs the other.

This Poem Will Kill Me Someday

04/20.

i just want you to treat me kindly,
to treat me like you love me.

i don't know why
that's so hard for you
if you love me enough
to stay with me

and i wish i could help you

but i don't know how to be
someone who deserves love.